You'll probably think i'm weird for saying this

but i don't care.

I wish, at times, that I were a boy.

Really, there are so many great things about being a female, but a major aspect of what I dont like about it, is the "safety." I'm sure I'm generalizing, so just bear with me for a minute, but what would it be like to walk around at night, on your own, without worrying about safety. I was reading a friends blog, and he wrote about an awesome experience where he was in a foreign country, went wandering about at night, exploring, and ran into a homeless man, whom he then engaged in an amazing conversation until the late hours of the night. I wish. Maybe I could do something like that, but since I have been young, I have been instilled with the idea that it is unsafe for women to go walking about at night, or to talk to strangers, especially random men. Who knows what stronger people may be out there wanting to harm you? Maybe I could be strong, if I worked at it. I've always noticed this difference between boys and girls. I grew up with one brother, and sure, there are other aspects that are factored into individually parenting us, such as first born/second born, and the difference in our personalities, but I don't think the aspect of gender can be overlooked. I can't say that I often, if ever, resented that my brother got more freedom, at an earlier age, than I did; I simply noticed it.

If you know me, then you already know that I love to travel and am passionate about global relief. I want the opportunity to go into foreign countries, explore, meet new, different, amazing people, build relationships, and ultimately do what I can to aid in these countries. Is is possible that I'll allow fear to inhibit me from doing what I feel called to do? Would I choose to not go to a foreign country on my own, because I feel I won't be safe on my own? I'm not going to rely on others to go with me, I'm just going to rely on God. I am making a promise to myself to not allow a fear of safety hinder me from traveling abroad and going on adventures. This is what I feel called to do and I'll make it work, along with a lot of help from my omnipotent Father.

Goodness!

I fail miserably in terms of writing consistently.

Well, disregarding the time I napped on the plane this morning, I have been awake for 10 minutes shy of 24 hours. I came home from Chicago today (which was such a great trip)! I have lots to tell and I'll post pictures too :] But, for now, it bed time. See ya!

Summer = Bliss

I went swimming the day before yesterday
I went running yesterday
I went biking today
I should be a triathlete!
Haha. Not really.
I'm just really enjoying summer and the beautiful weather that comes with it. I love my mom, and the fact that she biked ten miles or so with me today. I LOVE that I got a great deal today on a super cute skirt (the same exact one I wanted from American Apparel for $30, at Target for $9!). I love that I'm getting to spend time with my best friend who I'd kind of lost touch with since being away at college. I'm excited to see a new city on Monday - Chicago! I love hanging out with lots of great people, and I love that summer allows me the time to do so. I love that I finally got a new hairstyle. I love spending so much time with my family! This is really cheesy, but I'm liking being tan too. Haha.

Kind of excited about this

So now that I'm on Summer break (insert excalmation here!), I decided to make a list. A list of things to do when I think I'm bored. Because, I'm convinced that it's a choice to be bored. So, here's some of the things I came up with:

1. Sew 4 aprons
2. paint on canvas
3. play with your doggies
4. go on a bike ride
5. go to disneyland
6. go to the gym
7. go to the park and play with sidewalk chalk
8. download music
9. write letters to APU friends and Marisa
10. read your Bible
11. fly a kite
12. go for a good run
13. ichat someone
14. practice your spanish (and learn more)
15. write a blog (meaningful or fun)
16. call up a friend - see list #2
17. go see a movie
18. watch the entire X-men movie series
19. rent and watch all the Planet Earths
20. go swimming
21. learn a new song on tabs
22. read Jane Austen

To clarify: The four aprons are for my three modmates and me. List #2 contains the names of people I want to be sure to hang out with this summer. And, by tabs I mean guitar tabs (i'm learning).

F R E E

Alice Cooper says it best: "Schoooools out for Summer!"

small break before a BIG one

Sorry I haven't blogged in a good week. I've been super busy with finals and papers. I'm out of school once I turn in my chemistry paper day after tomorrow! New posts will come in a few days for sure.

Have a blessed day.