You'll probably think i'm weird for saying this

but i don't care.

I wish, at times, that I were a boy.

Really, there are so many great things about being a female, but a major aspect of what I dont like about it, is the "safety." I'm sure I'm generalizing, so just bear with me for a minute, but what would it be like to walk around at night, on your own, without worrying about safety. I was reading a friends blog, and he wrote about an awesome experience where he was in a foreign country, went wandering about at night, exploring, and ran into a homeless man, whom he then engaged in an amazing conversation until the late hours of the night. I wish. Maybe I could do something like that, but since I have been young, I have been instilled with the idea that it is unsafe for women to go walking about at night, or to talk to strangers, especially random men. Who knows what stronger people may be out there wanting to harm you? Maybe I could be strong, if I worked at it. I've always noticed this difference between boys and girls. I grew up with one brother, and sure, there are other aspects that are factored into individually parenting us, such as first born/second born, and the difference in our personalities, but I don't think the aspect of gender can be overlooked. I can't say that I often, if ever, resented that my brother got more freedom, at an earlier age, than I did; I simply noticed it.

If you know me, then you already know that I love to travel and am passionate about global relief. I want the opportunity to go into foreign countries, explore, meet new, different, amazing people, build relationships, and ultimately do what I can to aid in these countries. Is is possible that I'll allow fear to inhibit me from doing what I feel called to do? Would I choose to not go to a foreign country on my own, because I feel I won't be safe on my own? I'm not going to rely on others to go with me, I'm just going to rely on God. I am making a promise to myself to not allow a fear of safety hinder me from traveling abroad and going on adventures. This is what I feel called to do and I'll make it work, along with a lot of help from my omnipotent Father.